Posts tagged: love
I’ve always been mildly aware of the latest trends, sometimes a trailblazer and sometimes years behind the rest. Tea is a drink which has always been a part of my life. A cup of tea after dinner over conversation with the family, a mug while snuggled up on the couch with a good book, some green tea with ginger to soothe a sore throat, and a lovely light grape white cup to share a heart-to-heart with a good friend. Tea has been in the periphery of my life and provided comfort and a sense of peace. However, I have only recently begun to indulge in the craze that tea has become over the past few years.
I’ve ventured into tea shoppes but felt too overwhelmed to participate. A few weeks ago I decided my time had come. I was ready. And so off I went to David’s Tea (I’m a sucker for the tins - Hey! They have an excellent marketing dept, what can I say).
$60 later and an arm-load of tea tins (plus a mug to-go) I was on my way.
And I fell deeper in love.
Interesting how a cuppa tea has been part of my life for so long (as long as I can remember actually), and now I am ready to dive in and untangle some of her layers and explore her more fully. I’ve ventured from the safety of my Tetley Orange Pekoe and am now discovering a whole new world of deliciousness.
Current favourites are Organic Strawberry White (so divine!), Genmaicha (so delish!) and Nepal (just so good!).
Today I shall venture for a detox tea - I’m considering David’s Detox or Skinny. Been having some GI issues and food intolerances so this week is devoted to cleaning up my system.
Bring on the fresh fruits and veggies!
“Tenuous at best was all he had to say”
I haven’t posted in a while although very much has happened and transiented through my life. I’m feeling so solid and so secure in my life, for the first time in a very long time….perhaps ever? Interesting that the definition of tenuousness is: long and slender; having very little substance. My Bobber made me a mix-tape for my trip home on the weekend and this was the title track. I think it interesting that the most secure and solid I’m feeling, and yet the title track is the exact opposite. Now, I don’t think this is some sign of warning from the universe. In fact, I have never felt so solid…so sure of anything ever before. In fact, I think maybe that’s the point. I feel so solid and secure that the point of Bobs choosing this song is to solidify how non-flimsy we are in a way. It’s such a beautiful song. I love it.
The last song on my mix-tape is “Follow Me” by Cuff the Duke, which is super-fitting. Firstly because we saw them in concert back in the winter…at the beginning…duh-duhn-dunnnn….and I didn’t remember seeing them in concert other than the feelings of nostalgia and comfot and I experienced upon hearing this song within my playlist mixtape. This, plus the super-sweet and comforting lyrics “if you can’t walk I will carry you back home” just made me feel like the luckiest girl in the whole entire world.
Seriously, who makes mixtapes anymore, let alone receives them? I love them and I love my RM. My mixtapes are our little secret (which I’ve now shared with all of you). My latest, #2, makes my heart melt. And that’s all there really is to say. What else matters? When you find someone who makes your heart melt…that’s just so special. There’s no words. I think that’s why mixtapes and art are so special to me. They describe the feelings and emotions for which there are no words.
I love you RM. xo
Woke up this morning in a great mood. I had wonderful dreams, in which I said goodbye to many of my current students and the teachers and educational assistants that I’ve been working with this past year. It sounds sad, but it left me with a feeling of contentment and appreciation, and that although I’m leaving and will miss my kiddo’s dearly I can leave with a feeling of satisfaction and a job well done.
I had a delicious pot of tea in stumpy (below) while writing up another assessment report.
I then decided that since it was so beautiful outside I would go for a quick run, and a cool-down with some yoga. Nothing like running in the sunshine, listening to the Beatles, and then some downward dog. Great start to the day.
Feeling so wonderful and content, I had the urge to pull a card. My aura feels so different than last night I wondered what message the universe might have for me. And boy do I believe in the small signs that might otherwise go unnoticed. I put the Mind card at the bottom of the deck and gave a good shuffle. I then decided to go upstairs to sit on my mat while doing my cards…as I was going up the stairs I glanced at the bottom card which interestingly was Healing. I never pick a card like that, so I carried on into my kitchen where my yoga mat was laid out. Gave the deck another good shuffle. While shuffling a few cards spilled out, the last being…what else but Healing. Okay universe! I’m listening.
I think my affirmation to let go last night had some time to steep overnight, and I am in a lot better place than I believed yesterday. With the flood of emotion that overcame me yesterday I felt all of the emotions I worked so hard to overcome last spring/summer and felt as though I had regressed back to square one.
Today I woke up empowered and excited about my present and what my future holds. The picture on Healing shows hands covering the face and stomach, two chakras which I had a lot of difficulty with this time last year. I had great difficulty speaking my mind, and was often overcome with waves of nausea. I believe the hands depicted serve to remind me of my therapists (both traditional and alternative) who helped me through that time.
As I look to the description, I can’t help but get teary-eyed. “It is a time when the deeply buried wounds of the past are coming to the surface, ready and available to be healed.” Wow.
“The aura around this body is full of light, and the quality of relaxation, caring and love that surrounds him is dissolving his struggle and suffering.”
Thank you for affirming what I already knew. Thank you universe for reassuring me of my growth and progress, and for reminding me of the love that surrounds me.
This week has been a heavy one. Heavy with work, trying to get end-of-year reports done for all my students as well as assessment reports for all the new kids on caseload. Heavy with emotion, as past events resurface with new information and new perspectives…bringing lots of questions and very few answers. Heavy. I’ve been taking it one day at a time, and now that Friday is here, I’m done. I am done. I’m spent. I’ve used all of my energy to make it this far and today I felt lost. Very emotional, constantly on the verge of tears, and snapping at those closest to me. It’s a tough place to be.
Fortunately, I have great coping strategies and the most amazing friends and family. I took some time for me (a cup of tea works wonders, especially when steeped in an adorable lime teapot). I had a great chat with my never-ceases-to-amaze-me boyfriend, another heart-to-heart with my wonderful-don’t-know-what-I’d-do-without-her girlfriend, and a teary-yet-much-needed soul chat with my dear mother.
Tonight before bed, I decide to pull my usual three cards and my present is “mind”. Again so fitting as I feel as though my head is going to explode with the whirlwind of thoughts swirling around.
“All that rubbish goes on moving in your head; your head goes on spinning and weaving - it keeps you occupied.”
“With this cloud, you cannot know reality…This cloud has to be dropped.”
This makes so much sense, and really affirms what R was trying to tell me earlier. By continuing to think about and analyze a situation which happened over a year ago (which in the light of new information is hard not to do), and then concerning myself with the potential for history to repeat itself (although R is absolutely wonderful) I’m subconsciously pushing him away. Which is the last thing I want to do.
So as hard as it seems, my affirmation this week is to drop it. “As it is just with your decision to drop it that it will disappear. You are clinging to it - the cloud is not interested in you, remember.” And that being said, time for sleep and to start a fresh new day tomorrow.
“…you are at a point where a world of possibilities is open to you.”
Realizing and becoming more open to “your unlimited possibility upon your unlimited potential” is an interesting perspective on the crossroads I’m at currently. Finally I am feeling comfortable and competent at work, like I truly am doing a good job and making a difference. I feel more confident and assured and ready to dive into the world of private practice, which would grant me the ability to do more hands-on treatment with my children. As I finish up my current contract in Ottawa, in School Health Support Services, I realize I have a world of opportunity and need to decide where I want to be, and who I want to share my life with. Who, and what, are important? Do I stay in Ottawa or do I move back to Toronto? Burlington? Or do I throw caution to the wind and head up north to Nunavut? And importantly, where does R fit in, in all of this? … Some things to think about this week. How do you decide where in the world you want to be?